a scarlet picture

this morning i watched the sky brighten as morning overtook clementi...how many more mornings will i catch in armour? how many nights will i stay up outside? sleep seems second place now... but what can you do when you want to commit to opposites...both i wouldnt want to lose.

last night crowding at essential brews reminded me that i was never a group person.. and still am not.. cant stand the squeezed, cramped noise, having to shout so that the other person can hear you, feeling so out of sorts...all the conversation cliques forming all about and not really interested in joining any..

so phua and i left for starbucks, back into some comfortable human space. and as luck would have it, the entire sofa was OURS! Mwahaha. so much better than the eenymeeny cushions and low tables at essential brews. it pays to have initiative, i say. hahaha.
and we talked about stuff.... so glad to be able to sit down together and chat about anything... been a long time.

leaving essential brews xiangwei jumped out at us from behind a pillar. and went 'Hwwar!!!' i swear my heart skipped and my life shortened by a 10 years. i want to hit him with a pot.

i think when real friendships form there's something tangible-invisible that you can count on going back to whenever you meet up again... its like turning off the road when you say bye and picking up the trail from where you left off again when you say hi... met so many old friends (old? is half a year ago old? hmm..) and nothing changes. all the familiar flavoured warmth and casualness. micht joshy omalley shah sumei aloy...
gotta arrange a time to meet up with ppl before they fade out of focus. dint see yapx or audrey, which was a bit of a disappointment..

went out with theo afterwards for a bit...
sigh. she paints my sky with sunshine.


why do you hurt when you're happy?