i dont like my life

i dint realize i havent blogged for so long! somehow i've taken time to be measured in weekend blocks, so i think that since its not been THAT many weekends since i last posted an entry it hasnt felt like any significant loss to my blogging history.

then when i come online and go to my blog and read my last entry (like more than a month ago), i also realize i cant think of anything to blog about that isnt so scandalous or private or embarrasing that i wouldnt want anyone to read about and hyperventilate and die. used to have lots of crap to put down so that i wouldnt forget what the crap was on my mind that i didnt want to forget, but now i cant think of the next thing i wanted to say to anyone or whatever things i had to bitch about two days ago that seemed so important then. maybe it just means i'm becoming more mature and less focused on trivial bitchy interpersonal issues. as if.

its funny when meeting up with other guys and we have to make an agreement that in the next half an hour we WILL NOT talk about army stuff. but the saf worm will still manage to escape after a few minutes. indefatigable. no wonder its said the army life is no life at all.

i will never in my life sign on to the army. i would have to be crazy.

right now, i dont like my life. at all.