certain things

i think things are getting better. not much that happened the past few days seem very eventful. spent baccalaureate wondering why i subjected myself to extended chapel and waking up at 5am to rush to school to do... what? watch the ppl i dont like singsong on stage. at least the band was good and i enjoyed the hymns yup. consolation.

picture taking afterwards was awful cos i dont have a proper camera and it was so hot and trying to avoid certain people erk. and then i went home early cos i just felt i couldnt take the 'oh look i love the class let me show it by being chirpy and social' thing anymore. yup.

lately i've been drifting from You Lord.
help me come back. today after failing to find a seat at woodlands library i went for a walk at causeway point and bought four little pass it on cards at mount zion. kinda drifted to that shop and felt quite happy and peaceful for once. hearing christian lyrics over the speakers in the shop was definitely therapeutic. i need you in my life.

anyway. somehow yingshi and i are getting closer, and i'm beginning to harbour mixed feelings about her. she says she and kenny are... i'm also not sure. on off on off on off i cant even remember. can only advise. somehow this is the kind of scenario you only see on tv. anyway deep down she is really genuine and kind and warm, perhaps a bit misdirected and liberal in her affections. i'm not sure about anything anymore, so its best i not speculate. let things run their course la anyway i've got As to handle and if she wants to come down and visit me mugging at the library it's always nice yup.

after exams
go for french lessons with audrey
take up tap (finally) with... joshua? haha mebbe just myself
do stuff with... someone