yellow brains in the washing machine

was reading a book in the library

it was called '30000 mornings'
find it and you'll understand what i'm trying to get at.

why do men have so much testosterone. cant we think of sex less? desire less? lust less? all these sins and indecencies that arise from faithlessness and torrid loss of control. men are disgusting. always looking to hug kiss touch sniff grope squeeze caress looking for the next fix next roll in the shack. disgustingly amorous creatures.

i could go on about stupid disgusting males being male, but i there's this dumb irony of me writing it. i just wanna point out an obvious fact that everyone knows already, so that people can confirm it and nod in agreement 'yesyes, oh what a good point' and everyone will think i am a sensitive, thoughtful and wholly unfilthy brudder.

gah.

turning into some self-hate already.


ahhhhhhhh not enough sleep.